Today I buried my first born son

Today I buried my oldest son, Samuel Rodriguez Jr....he was only 19.

I never thought I would be buring my son, this is something that always happens to someone else, but never me. My son was shot and killed Saturday, May 23, while trying to help a girl who was getting beat up.

I thought I could sit and type this, but I can't.......

Lazy Day

Today was a rainy, pajama kind of day....

Out the office window

Looking out the office window, longing to be out there and not in here.

40 minutes to go.....

Bikes

pic taken with Blackberry

Fonzy and I got bikes to ride with the boys. It had been a few years since I rode a bike, but foolishly thought it wouldn't be a big deal to go riding. WRONG! Oh my gosh, when did it become so hard to ride a bike? We went on a bike trail and I thought I was going to die! And hills? Forget it. I had to get off my bike and walk it up the hill. No good. But I wasn't the only one, Fonzy struggled with the hills too. The boys would wait for us and wonder why it took it so long to get up the hill. It was pretty sad. We've gone riding twice....haven't been again. Of course the boys complain and remind us daily that we told them we would ride bikes everyday after dinner. What were we thinking???? We really need to watch what we say to them.

Slump

me

I've been in a bit of a slump lately. Haven't been blogging, no knitting....just doing the bare minimal to get through each day. I'm not sure what's going on with me...just feeling blah. I guess we all go through that sometime. I need to get it together. I think some of my blah-ness is my weight. I hate that I'm such a procrastinator and haven't lost this 20-25lbs. I know I just need to work out, but I don't have the energy. Or maybe I'm just using that as an excuse. I sometimes have the energy, but just don't want to do it and the weight is not going to just fall off by itself. I'm not even going to write anymore about it. I'm tired of hearing myself talk about weight and not doing anything about it.

Enough!