Monday, October 20, 2014

25

samuel2525 years ago today, I pushed you into this world. A perfect little baby, in which I had no clue how I was going to raise, being a kid myself. We had our ups and downs, but through it all, I loved you.

And 19 years later, I would bury you.

I still, at times can't believe it. This was not the life I envisioned when I held you in my arms all those years ago in the hospital. But it's what we have. 19 years.

I often wonder what you would be like today at 25. Would you be married? Have kids? Would your music career have taken off. All the dreams you had...gone in a split second.

I try not to dwell on the pain of losing you. Most days, the pain is bearable. But there are moments, when the pain in my heart is more than I can bear, when I feel I can't breathe, when the tears stream down my face and I want to scream at the top of my lungs WHY!

25....you would have been 25 today. Instead....you are forever young at 19.

Friday, October 17, 2014

Day 17 - Hair

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Hair!

The hair consists of a skull cap, and then whatever type of hair I want or in this case, the customer wants. For this doll, dreads or something like dreads was requested. I think using the twisted loop stitch and this bulky yarn will create a dread effect. At least I hope so!

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Day 15 - Stuffed!

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Once all the pieces are knitted it's time to stuff and sew the doll all together. At this point I get excited, because I'm almost there.

Seaming is not my favorite, but with each doll I'm getting better and better.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Day 14 - Dress Done!

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Done!

 I need is a button for the front of the dress for decoration, but I'm officially calling it done!