Monday, October 20, 2014

25

samuel2525 years ago today, I pushed you into this world. A perfect little baby, in which I had no clue how I was going to raise, being a kid myself. We had our ups and downs, but through it all, I loved you.

And 19 years later, I would bury you.

I still, at times can't believe it. This was not the life I envisioned when I held you in my arms all those years ago in the hospital. But it's what we have. 19 years.

I often wonder what you would be like today at 25. Would you be married? Have kids? Would your music career have taken off. All the dreams you had...gone in a split second.

I try not to dwell on the pain of losing you. Most days, the pain is bearable. But there are moments, when the pain in my heart is more than I can bear, when I feel I can't breathe, when the tears stream down my face and I want to scream at the top of my lungs WHY!

25....you would have been 25 today. Instead....you are forever young at 19.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Day 19 - Done!

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And we have a doll! I hope the recipient loves her to pieces.

And  I have 2 weeks left of 31 days of doll knitting. Hmmmm...didn't plan on that. I think a Halloween project is in order. And then on to another doll!

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Day 18 - Hi!

jenedadoll10 Putting on finishing touches and this little cutie will be done!

Friday, October 17, 2014

Day 17 - Hair

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Hair!

The hair consists of a skull cap, and then whatever type of hair I want or in this case, the customer wants. For this doll, dreads or something like dreads was requested. I think using the twisted loop stitch and this bulky yarn will create a dread effect. At least I hope so!

Thursday, October 16, 2014