Slump

me

I've been in a bit of a slump lately. Haven't been blogging, no knitting....just doing the bare minimal to get through each day. I'm not sure what's going on with me...just feeling blah. I guess we all go through that sometime. I need to get it together. I think some of my blah-ness is my weight. I hate that I'm such a procrastinator and haven't lost this 20-25lbs. I know I just need to work out, but I don't have the energy. Or maybe I'm just using that as an excuse. I sometimes have the energy, but just don't want to do it and the weight is not going to just fall off by itself. I'm not even going to write anymore about it. I'm tired of hearing myself talk about weight and not doing anything about it.

Enough!

Purpose

What is my purpose? Why did God put me here in this place and time? This has been on my mind a lot lately. I don't feel deep in my soul that I'm living my purpose, but I don't know how to find it. I feel life is passing me by, and I'm just a spectator. Sometimes I feel like I'm too old to start anything new, or that my life is almost over, so why try to make it better now? I know 37 is not that old, but it's not young either. I feel I haven't accomplished anything in my 37 years. When it's my time to leave this earth, what will people say about me? What difference did I make.......what was the purpose of my life?